Unusuality

Well, I just don't know how to begin this entry, and therefore can't predict what I'll write in this! Each day I give myself some minutes to think about you, several other minutes to pray for that one, and so many seconds to dream of this one! Someone may reckon I'm so selfish doing the above, but never know that I spend a lifetime thinking of all of the rest I've known. I don't need anyone to do the same to me, it's just a waste of time, huh? Yeah, just go your own way and never look back, especially on me! I've never admitted to not liking loneliness, but I don't, really don't! I may find tranquility at first, but what about later? So I've tried finding someone to be with to dispel that feeling, but it seems to me that that hasn't worked. The path's getting longer and longer, and the destination's still in the dark. It's destined that we must be with something we hate or dislike or even loathe, not with what we like or love. I'll keep going on and on, and try to make myself believe that it ain't a foe, but a friend. The reason? Simply 'cause I just can't hide from it, must face it every day. I chose that way, and I know I just can't help following it. I don't and won't care 'bout what y'all say, yeah, that way's mine and nothing can bar me. I won't get to the end of it, but somehow my soul can. Oh yes, there's still something left, waiting for being defined.